Tuesday, 29 June 2010

Safe Haven: New Banner

I have no reason for making this, apart from the fact the other one was boring me. I'm only putting this post here 'cause I need the code it provides, same with the other ones I posted.

Monday, 28 June 2010

Fraternizing is Forbidden: New Banner

I'm in the mood to make posts on my blog, clearly. Here is a new banner I made for FiF last night. As usual, I got bored, and decided to make a new banner. My other one for FiF was bad, so it was time to update it. I made Jasper blond *laughs* I mean, I made Jackson blond. It was a still from the film 'Dread' (you should totally watch that film, seen it so many times now) and his hair was black in it! Which is why his hair is blond, but black in parts. I don't know, it is hard changing hair colour!

Lost in Orbit: Teaser

Here is a teaser to Chapter 26 - I Should Have Paid More Attention.

She got up then without my help and made her way into the other room. I followed right behind her and watched as she sat down on the couch. She curled her legs up in front of her and wrapped her arms around them.

I sat down next to her and turned so that I was facing her. I pulled my legs up onto the chair and crossed them in front of me. She was completely silent for a full minute before I decided to break the silence.

"So, are we going to talk about this?" I asked in a quiet voice. I didn't know how to approach these kinds of topics. I didn't know what to say, I didn't know what you weren't meant to do. But it wasn't as if I could go to someone for advice on how to handle situations like these. I didn't have anyone.

"What is there to talk about?" she asked after a while. She seemed reluctant to have this conversation, and in that moment, it was as if the roles had reversed. She sounded like the child, not wanting to talk about it, while I was suddenly the parent, trying to solve the situation. It was wrong to think that way, and a part of me wanted to get as far away from the situation as possible. But we had to do this. We couldn't keep putting it off, and pretending that it wasn't happening when it was.

I frowned. "How about what started it off this time?"

I watched as her eyes flickered towards me and met my own. I grimaced when I saw the pain inside them. How had I been ignoring this?

"I'm lonely, Jasper," she finally whispered. 
In case you're wondering, Jasper is talking to his mother.

Lost in Orbit: Music Inspiration

I posted a new chapter (25) on FFnet, and the song We Might As Well Be Strangers by Keane kind of fits with what is happening between Alice and Bella. I know, technically, the song is about two people who were in love, falling out of love. But just look at it from the POV of two people being best friends then drifting apart. Then hopefully you'll see what I mean.

Friday, 25 June 2010

Lost in Orbit: Teaser

Another post, and another teaser. You'll be seeing a lot of these, though. This is taken from chapter 25 - Even Together, We Stand Apart. I actually got the title to chapter from my friend's status on msn. I remember seeing it and thinking it would be a perfect title for this chapter.

Here is the teaser:

I could only assume from the way she kept shuffling awkwardly on the bed beside me, that she didn’t know how to say what was on her mind. It must have been something big for her to act like this with me.

"Jasper seems to be around a lot," she began. There was a tone in her voice that I didn't understand. It was almost judgemental, but what she was judging, I wasn't completely sure.

"Yeah he is," I replied in a cautious tone. I didn't know where she was going with this.

"What kind of things do you talk about?"


"Everything?" she asked. Her voice rose slightly, and her eyes widened as she stared at me.

"Yes," I insisted. "Everything."

"But…" She seemed to lose her voice as her brow furrowed and she looked down at her lap.
It's short, but I'm going to be updating again soon(ish) anyway.

Lost in Orbit: Alternate Scene

I recently updated chapter 24 of Lost in Orbit on FFnet. I mentioned in my author notes that there is an alternate scene where Jasper does actually carry Alice through the car park (sorry! Parking lot!). Here it is:

He sighed and looked around quickly. "Give me your bag," he instructed.


"Give me your bag," he repeated as he held out his hand for it. I did as he told and passed it to him then watched in astonishment as he slung it over his shoulder with his own bag.

My brow furrowed in confusion, but thankfully my tears dried up. "What are you doing?"

"I'm going to carry you," he stated simply.

I was speechless as he finished, and I was sure my expression questioned his sanity just a little. "But… you… no…"

"No buts, Alice," he said, silencing me. "If you can't walk through there on your own then I'll do it for you."

I opened my mouth to say something but he cut me off again as he raised his eyebrow at me. I guess I was about to start my sentence with but.

"You won't be able to carry me," I whispered as I stepped towards him nonetheless.

He smiled weakly. "I'm sure I'll manage, Alice."

I frowned but didn't say anything else as he stepped towards me. I was about to ask him how he was actually planning on picking me up when he bent down and easily lifted me from the ground bridal style.

I gasped as he tightened his hold around me. "Are you okay?" I searched his voice to see if it was struggling to hold me, but it didn't sound strained at all. In fact, he sounded as he always did.

"Yeah," I squeaked as he slowly started to move. He made me feel like I weighed ten pounds.

I didn't look at around, not only because I didn't want to see where it happened, but also because I got the impression that people were watching us. I couldn't blame them, really, if it were me, I would be watching this seemingly bizarre situation too.

"Alice, close your eyes," he murmured. I didn't need telling twice as I tightly shut my eyes and leant towards his chest. I tried not to think about anything as he carried me through the parking lot.

I didn't open my eyes when I heard two people call my name. I knew that it was Rosalie and Emmett, they would follow us inside. I still didn't open my eyes even when I felt the warmth of the heating inside the school. Regardless, Jasper was still walking and so I'd only open them once he's stopped.

"Alice?" Emmett and Rosalie cried simultaneously as I heard them run towards us.

"She's okay," Jasper exclaimed, only slightly out of breath. "You can open your eyes now," he murmured to me. I slowly allowed my eyes to open and inwardly sighed in relief when I noticed that we were in one of the more empty corridors next to the entrance.

Jasper slowly let me down and I wiped my eyes free of any tears before turning to face Emmett and Rosalie.
Lol, let me know what you think :P

Monday, 21 June 2010

Lost in Orbit: New Banner

I got rather bored last night, and after preparing the next five or so updates for the story, I decided to make a new banner. Being true to myself, I made more than one, six to be exact. I asked Carla (vegetarianvamps) which one she liked the most, and here it is:

This is my new banner on Twilighted. What do you think?

Friday, 18 June 2010

Safe Haven: Teaser

My final post of tonight, I think. Here is a teaser to my third and final story, Safe Haven. I haven't updated this in about 6 months, but I'm re-writing the story at the moment, so hopefully once I get to the end of re-writing the chapters, I'll find my muse, beat that writers block, and write the final chapters.

Anyway, here is the teaser:

At first I didn't feel anything, but then slowly I started feel a small wave of admiration wash over me. I wanted to open my eyes, or smile at him for feeling that way. But I knew that as soon as I do that, he would lose control and it would all come gushing out.

I spoke too soon.

The admiration was soon washed away by determination, love, disgust, shame, desire, lust, thirst and a hint of sadness. It happened like that every time we tried it. He would manage it for a few seconds, but then it would overload, as if he was running out of breath, and suddenly it would all come flying out in one large swoop.

“I'm sorry,” he said, out of breath. It took a lot out of him each time we tried. I shuffled forward so that I was kneeling in front of him. I took his face in my hands and kissed his forehead.

“You have nothing to be sorry about,” I whispered. He brought his hands up so they rested over my own. We stayed like that for a while, just staring into each other’s eyes. It was peaceful out here, quiet. What I didn't realise, was that we were close to humans.

“Shall we hunt?” Jasper asked, breaking the silence. “It will help take my mind off things.”

I nodded, I would agree to anything if he said it would help him. I should have known not to let him hunt in this area, but I was too busy relishing in the touch of his hand in mine to realise.

Fraternizing is Forbidden: Teaser

Okay, a totally different story now, but I will give out a teaser for this too. It isn't much of a teaser, but it's all I have, sorry.

“I’m actually visiting my mum, as my lessons were cancelled today. Also, I haven’t seen her in like a fortnight, and to answer your other question, no, I’m not here often. However, I try to be, even if it is merely just to admire the view.”

I smirked at her, turning the charm onto full notch. I briefly wondered whether she realised that I was referring to her, when her pouty lips parted ever so slightly. However, she seemed to recover, as a sexy, confident smirk played across her lips. To say that smirk alone wasn’t a turn on, would be a lie, and a big one at that.

“Admire the view, huh?” she murmured rather seductively, whether intentionally or not, that was how I interpreted it. “Seen anything you like?”

Oh, she knows I’m talking about her alright, I thought to myself as I allowed my eyes to do all the talking for me.

“The view’s looking pretty good from where I’m standing,” I whispered. She was stunned, or at least I think she was. I wanted to badly to lean forward and kiss her. I doubted she would protest with the way she was staring at me.

Lost in Orbit: Teaser

I've finally caught up with my story on this new blog, so here we go, this is the teaser to chapter 24:

I was tempted to turn around when the bus drove round the corner. I instantly moved so that Jasper was between me and the bus. He reached behind him without looking and grabbed my hand. He squeezed it gently then slowly pulled me towards the bus.

It was silent as I stepped on, maybe it was my mind playing tricks on me, but I felt as if everyone's eyes were on me. I would look different to what they might have been expecting, considering my hair was now significantly shorter than what I used to be. I slid into the first row of seats, desperate to be out of sight.

I hunched over in the chair and curled my legs up against my chest, the bus was full of chatter, but paranoia got the best of me and I couldn't help but think that the chatter was about me.

"I'm here," Jasper whispered, staring at me intently.

"What is wrong with me?" I asked, more to myself than anyone. Why was I reacting like this? Why was I so paranoid about what people were thinking of me? I hadn't done anything wrong. I hadn't caused any catastrophes.
I was just Alice Brandon.

I wasn't the girl whose boyfriend died in front of her. I wasn't the girl that had remained inside her room for the last three months. I wasn't the girl who was terrified of stepping inside the school gates in case the pain that had consumed her before came back again.

I was just Alice Brandon.

Lost in Orbit: Music Inspiration

I love Michael Buble, and his song 'Lost' just had to be in my playlist. Again, I had this song in my mind long before Chapter 22 - Not Alone was written.

Here's an extract from Chapter 22:

But as I sat there, using Alice as my anchor, I finally understood what it meant to share, and to let someone in and help you. Only Alice would truly understand what happened. My parents. Maria's parents. My friends. None of them ever understood the pain that I went through. Though their pain was just as strong, it had been different for each of them. Maria's parents had each other, I had no one.
But now I had someone.

"You're not alone anymore," I whispered. I now knew that neither of us would truly be alone again. We had each other, it wouldn't be easy, but maybe now we could move forward. Together.

Here is the video:

Here are some lyrics that fit with the chapter:

Summer turned to winter
And the snow it turned to rain
And the rain turned into tears upon your face
I hardly recognized the girl you are today
And god I hope it's not too late
It's not too late

'Cause you are not alone
I'm always there with you
And we'll get lost together
Till the light comes pouring through
'Cause when you feel like you're done
And the darkness has won
Babe, you're not lost
When your world's crashing down
And you can't bear to fall
I said, babe, you're not lost

Life can show no mercy
It can tear your soul apart
It can make you feel like you've gone crazy
But you're not
Things have seem to changed
There's one thing that's still the same
In my heart you have remained
And we can fly, fly, fly away

Lost in Orbit: Music Inspiration

As soon as I heard Daughtry - Ghost of Me for the first time, I knew it was the song to go with chapter 17 - What I've Become.

Here's a little quote:

“Alice? What are you doing?” Mom cried from somewhere behind me. I didn’t reply as I cut another length of hair. I felt her hand on my shoulder as she pulled me around to face her. As I looked up at her, I watched as she gasped and clasped her hand over her mouth, tears falling from her wide, scared eyes.

I don’t know what it was she saw in my eyes, but I knew she wasn’t seeing Alice Brandon. She was seeing the shell that had replaced her daughter. For Alice Brandon no longer existed, her heart, soul and reason to live, died the day that Robbie Grayson left this Earth.

“Robbie liked my hair long.” I didn’t even sound like my old self anymore.

Anyway, here is the song. Do you agree with me?

Here are some of the lyrics that I thought fit the most:

Your imagination and emotions running wild
Fuelling my frustration
Like a fire burning, clock keeps turning now
I know it's getting underneath your skin
I try to tell you now

Don't look over your shoulder
'Cause that's just the ghost of me you're seeing in your dreams
Wait, there's no rhyme or reason
Sometimes there's no meaning in the visions when you're sleeping
Don't wake up and believe it
You're looking at the ghost of me

Also, Alice cuts her hair in this chapter. She cuts it herself, so you can imagine it would look a mess. Here is a picture I found, quite luckily in fact, of Ashley Greene in the costume rehearsal for Twilight. The wig she has on kind of fits what Alice's hair would have looked like after she cuts it, just picture it a little scruffier.

Lost in Orbit: Music Inspiration

My partner in crime, vegetarianvamps, told me about this song. She is a massive Bon Jovi fan, and she was like 'I've found a song for LiO'. She sent me the link and told me to watch the video. By the end of it, I was crying! Firstly, the lyrics, were amazing, and his voice! But also (and she pointed this out to me too) Bon Jovi kinda looks like an older Robbie. Just watch it, you will see what I mean about it fitting.

The ending! When he faded! That totally got to me.

Finally, during the funeral, Alice sees a picture of Robbie at the front. Did you ever wonder what this picture looked like? I based it on this one, of Alex Pettyfer, my Robbie stand-in :P


Lost in Orbit: Music Inspiration

Another set of songs for chapter 16! The other post would get too long if I carried on posting youtube videos on there!

I go from Kelly Clarkson to Ronan Keating. There were two songs, the first, This is Your Song, was the song playing as the funeral started. It always makes me think of Robbie now, seriously! I had this song in my mind long before I even wrote chapter 16.

And this song, The Long Goodbye is the chapter title. Again, the lyrics don't really fit, but I love the song.


Lost in Orbit: Music Inspiration

Chapter 16, Robbie's funeral. This one was a hard one to write. It took me months to get it right, seriously. My beta, Juniper294, played a large part in that, so she deserves some applause :D

I don't generally listen to Kelly Clarkson, in fact, I rarely listen to her. But I do have her album on my computer, and so while I was looking for sad songs to get me in the right 'mood', I found these two on her album 'All I Ever Wanted'.

The lyrics don't necessary fit in with what happens in the chapter. But because they are sad songs, they got me into the right frame of mind, and whilst I sat there crying my eyes out (no jokes) I pretty much wrote the whole of the middle section of chapter 16.

Lost in Orbit: Music Inspiration

When I was writing chapter 11 for Lost in Orbit, which happens to be Alice's POV after Robbie died, I had played Paolo Nutini - Last Request over and over again. Not all of the lyrics fit, but some of them do, and I worked them into the chapter.


It won't always be music, I'm just catching up with where I am update wise.

Thursday, 17 June 2010

Lost in Orbit: Music Inspiration

First post on my blog, and I had to think of something to say. I was thinking a teaser, but I decided to start it off with a song.

I played this song when I needed to write chapters from Jasper's POV. Especially chapter's three and four. This song seems to fit what Jasper was going through/thinking perfectly. I adore Paramore, and when I really listened to the lyrics, I realised how well they fit.


And when we get home, I know we won't be home at all
This place we live, it is not where we belong
And I miss who we were in the town that we could call our own
Going back to get away after everything has changed

'Cause you remind me of a time when we were so alive
(Everything has changed)
Do you remember that? Do you remember that?
(Everything has changed)
'Could you help me push aside all that I have left behind
(Everything has changed)
Do you remember that? Do you remember that?

So we stand here now and no one knows us at all
I won't get used to this
I won't get used to being gone
And going back won't feel the same if we aren't staying
Going back to get away after everything has changed

Do you agree that it fits with Jasper?